I want to talk a little bit about what motivates me and how I stay excited about fitness and losing weight. It can be tricky. Not that tricky, because I really just purely WANT to be healthy deep down, but every so often this voice talks to me that says "Um hello, you are gorgeous and perfect just the way you are, eat what you want!" There are two sides to this story, one side that is supremely grateful that I find myself beautiful at my "heavier" weights, and one side that wishes in a twisted way that I hated myself enough to never eat and to work out 10 times a week. Told you this would get weird. BUT. The happy balance I am leading up to is what I mentioned a moment ago: my real motivation to take care of myself in a healthy way because deep down I just love myself that much, and want to show my gorgeous body I love it by nourishing it, making it strong, sexy, and amazing, and also because I love how I feel when I do.
Now, when this ultimate motivation weakens a bit, and I need something more tangible or immediate to spur me along, I like to give myself little rewards and reminders. I get mini-rewards for every 2 pounds I lose, and larger rewards for larger milestones. I'm still working on the Michael Kors boots I mentioned in an earlier post. They are for hitting 186 on the scale. Mini-rewards are things like fashion magazines, nail polish, lip gloss, Bath & Body Works treats, etc. I earned this pretty nail color for this past Friday's weigh in:
If material treats somehow didn't do it for me (which would be cuckoo), I like making lists of benefits and fun things that will come with my weight loss, that are less material. This might get weird again, but again, my blog...
- daydream about laying on the beach in my new swimsuits in San Diego
- smaller boobs :) (I swear this is motivation enough.)
- summer clothes
- knee high boots not being tight on my calves
- face skinnier in pictures
- feel stronger running dirty dash race coming up
Happy Vday from a sick puppy on the mend. <3